I think smart people are the people who find variety in their lives when they start to sense an incoming onset of non creative sameness. Like for example, having a job that doesnt inspire, or being in the same zone as you were in before. What i think is that also having the mindset of surviving some sort of sameness, can lead a person to be subjected to a purgation. But of course, these samenesses are subjective. A number of people are trying hard to fight stagnation by exhausting efforts to find wonders in other things.
I have felt this incoming stagnation thats why i push myself to avoid a foreseeable rut ready to devour us, even the strong minded ones are put to the test.
This Friday, i had spent a time by myself not in search of a date on Valentines, but rather, some sort of a motivation that can hit me right on my face, telling me, "stop fucking abusing yourself!" and wonderfully, this came in the form of a free jazz concert in an intimate museum. I listened to the Angeles City Musicians Guild play 2 nights in a row, definitely got me into such an emotional state I even cried. I cried to a song that gave a mellow, sad drive. Like the ones you hear at bars with romantic people, not of lust, but of love. I couldnt stop crying. And it was easy to hide my tears in the dimmed lights...
And Of course and why did i go to this venue at all even though i havent got sleep yet from a very exhausting job, because i need to push myself to keep me from insanity.
kochi
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